When i pretend that everything is what i want it to be
i look exactly like what you had always wanted to see
when i pretend to forget about the criminal i am
stealing second after second just cause i know i can
but i can't pretend this is the way it'll stay
(i'm just trying to feel myself)
i can't pretend i'm who you want me to be
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so i'm lying away from you
(no, no turning back now)
i want to be closed inside so let me go
(no, no turning back now)
let me take back my life
i'd rather fight all alone
(no turning back now)
anywhere on my own cause i can't see
(no, no turning back now)
the very worst part of me is me
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i remember what they taught to me
remember condesending talk of who i outta be
remember listening to all of that and this again
so i pretended up a person who was fitting in
and now you think this person really is me and i'm
(trying to fill the truth)
before i push some more i'm pullin away because
(i'm lying away from you)
Chorus
This is the part i've wanted to be
i never thought that what i said
would have you running from me, like this
this isn't what i wanted to be
i never thought that what i said
would have you running from me 2x
Chorus