I've seen them, so dark.
black.
and yet fine.
the flower they carry had once been mine.
get away from me, man of stories.
robe of lies.
stay far from me.
i lie to myself (it's not hurting).
i need help, but not from you or yor father.
no!
jesus christ.
who's my saviour?
lose myself in gods death.
no!
i can't bear all this pain.
i had watched the snow all day.
falling.
it never lets up.
all day falling.
i lifted my voice and wept out loud,
"so this is life?".