“it’s cold tonight”,
i heard her say.
she was staring out the window as i came home late.
she tried to smile,
but looked away.
oh but i could see the tears were running down her face.
she said “you go to work,
you pay the bills,
i stay at home,
and i make the meals.
But you don’t even know who i am anymore,
you’re a million miles away,
though i see you every day.
and i’ve been waiting right here,
over all these years.
and sometimes i get so lonely,
i need to know you love me,
but do you even know me anymore?”
I turned around,
to see my son.
well i remember his first birthday when i was 21.
i missed his life,
i missed it all,
oh to him i was a man just living down the hall.
he said “i learned to live,
without you dad,
but i’d give it all
just to have you back.
But you don’t even know who i am anymore.
i used to wait at all my games,
but still you never came,
and i’ve been waiting right here,
over all these years.
for the times you said you’d owe me,
i wanted you to show me,
but do you even know me anymore?”
I’ve watched my days,
turn into years,
and now i’m wondering how i wound up here.
i dreamed my dreams,
i made my plans,
but all i’ve built here is an empty man.
And i don’t even know who i am anymore.
god i’m praying through the tears,
let me make up all these years.
oh have i waited too long?
can i start again?
to be the man you’ve wanted of me.
i’m begging you to show me,
but do you even know me anymore?