(chorus)
if you only knew
what i went through
if you only knew
what i've been through
if you only knew
the things i do
if you only knew
The real me too
the things that i went through
that were harder than i thought
through those times i grew
friends thought i could be bought
for the things that i've seen
for the times that i've been
for not im the same teen
for i have to choose not be in between

also the death that's near
also the parents talking don't wanna hear
also keeping everything inside even my tears
also hiding my fears
feeling so low
im not allowed to leave or go
im not allowed to have a voice
im not allowed to have a choice
i want it to be the end
i can't anymore pretend
but i know that this is just the beginning now
so much i wanna avow
(chorus)
if you only knew
what i went through
if you only knew
what i've been through
if you only knew
the things i do
if you only knew
the real me too
if i could only go back