I've waited long enough and i've been putting it all off
it's time i got myself going again
i've made enough excuses to last 'til the end of time
i've got to move forward with my plans
i tell myself that i am not cut out for this
i don't like anything that's happening now
but when i think of losing everything i've done so far
i know i've got to make it work somehow
what good is a friend if you can't look him in the eye?
what good is honesty if it feels like a lie?
what good is a dream if you never even try?
i thought that i was free and that i left that guy behind
i wanted to believe that someday i'd reach the sky
and if i don't press on then i'll watch the new me die
and the sadder self survive
this isn't as easy as they make it look on tv
i'd never have guessed it was so hard
and maybe you can hear it in the strain of my voice
the perils of it caught me off guard
but when you know that burning deep inside of you
is not something so easily ignored
you get back on that horse no matter how many times you fall
cause it's better than everything you've done before
my life is chronicled in lapses of writer's block
opening a window to let my feelings be mocked
you ask me why i put myself through this, to you i say
if you've ever chased a dream you know i can have it no other way
this is me today